Summer is a moment good enough to reflect on the past six months that are more New Year's resolution related than any other time - half way through the year, half way through bullet points of real life stuff with just enough lacy trimming at the ends to take off big time. How are you guys doing realistically? Or simply how are you doing?
I'm flipping through the diary, so many crossed out entries, highlighted sentences, references taking me to another page - chaos of the best kind. Unstoppable once, it appears I'm only surviving on the hope in the six months there are left ahead, there's no skill in procrastinating, no pleasure in saying yes to the things that take me away from what I really want to do. I've gotten away with it until now however sleeping well at night was never my strongest point. I'm so not all the things I wish I was - productive, consistent, self-willed, disciplined... you sure don't wanna hear some more, it's not healthy at any stage of working on a resolution, idea, project piled sky-high with expectations. There's no actual evidence to say I'm trying, just bouncing off like nobody would recommend. Summer really is a moment of truth. Regardless of what I've said so far, we look in the mirror more occasionally therefore count each calorie more obsessively. We're so aware of who we are days leading to the abundance of glances of others, heat and long summer nights. It turns out the race with time kick starts again, such a thrill, such a smart move. Everything needs time, lots of things require energy, only a few settle for poor concentration. But here's something to make your ears happy: I know what I like to do and what I'm good at. I know how I want my life and near future to be like, I've visualized it more than anything else. If now is not the right time then when?*
* ‘If you want to do anything right, you have to put your heart and soul into it. There are always challenges, but if you don’t love something than it’s just going to feel like a form of torture with no reward. Love your work and no sacrifice will be too big or too small.’ Madonna